Try again!

So I am not very good with keeping up with a daily journal as we can see I have not posted in quite some time! So here is a quick recap since we last spoke.....

I made it through my first 10 days the last 4 were very hard, life started getting the better of me and well I had a hard time making time for ME! Which means I did take all my vitamins and ate what I was supposed to...when I ate! See it is not that I eat all that much (unless I am stuck in a horrible depression state and I am just shoveling food in to my mouth!) but what I choose to eat is not all that good for me! I normally choose easy over nutrition.

So after the 10 day cleanse to get my body ready to go for phase 2....well we went camping for a week and had a blast at the pirate festival! But I gave in and did not even start phase 2.....I guess in my mind I did not want to start it knowing I would not follow it through, while camping. My will power was starting to fail on those last few days of phase one, so by the time I got to phase two....well yeah here we are!


I had a blast and was pretty active the five days we were gone camping....Lots of walking on the beach and lots of walking durring the festival!

The beach in Westport, WA that we walked several times while we camped.
Photo Taken By: Kasey (my youngest daughter)

So it wasn't all bad. I mean we got back Monday afternoon and today is Friday and my body is still tired 
and trying to get caught up. More pirate activities this weekend that have my brain occupied, but once they are over I will be back on track! So my goal is to wake up Monday morning ready or not and go run then come back and plan out my meals so that I wont have to think about what it is I am supposed to/ should be eating. 


The goal is for me to eat in moderation....a little bit of everything, not to withhold any certain foods from  myself and make sure I get in plenty of physical activity! Although I really need to limit the junk foods (chips are my weakness and my fall back food when I am stressed!) and eat more foods that are fresh and less processed! It is a state of mind and I know it....I just have to change how I and my family eat. This is by no means easy and anyone who thinks so....well it's no different then any other kind of addiction. It's no different then those who smoke and have a hard time stopping, food is the same way....finding a new way to deal with stress and depression and sticking to it is a fight....a fight I am going to keep fighting until I make it!

Me sailing on the Tall Ship Hawaiian Chieftain to kick off the Rusty Scuppers Pirate festival! It was a huge honor to be added to the pirates on the ship....A memory I will not soon forget!
Photo Taken By: The Shady Isle Pirates

So yesterday was Day Two!

Whenever embarking on a new journey, especially when you are trying to change habits you have had for long time and you fall back on for comfort is NEVER EASY!!!!!

UGH!!!! I know this....I really do, but that still doesn't help! I am doing things slowly not to turn my whole life upside down. I also WANT to make these changes, but it is still hard finding the motivation within myself to do it. So far during day 2 I did well following my schedule of when to eat and take my vitamins.  In fact other then the late night food cravings (which are HORRIBLE) food has not been my issue like in the past! In fact I find myself being under my calorie intake for the day (I also know this is not good...don't want my body going into starvation mode). I just don't seem to be able to get my self moving...I have all the stuff ready....just can't seem to make the time to do it! I know once I get moving I will feel even better. I think I just need a good swift kick in the arse!

I know I am on the right track I just have to keep at it....I will NOT Stop....I will NOT except defeat! It is time to pull out my piratittude and start moving! Okay well just as soon as the two year old I am babysitting gets up from her nap! HA HA! 

Overall Day 2 was okay, I was not active as I would have like to been, but I did eat well. Look at what I had for dinner:

One whole cucumber with the peel, 8oz. of skinless chicken breast tenders cooked in a little REAL butter, fresh squeezed lemon juice, garlic and a little no salt seasoning blend with half of a sweet onion. It was very good an filling, the best part was that I felt good after eating it!

SO today is now Day 3 and a chance to start again and make it what I want!

Reflection of Day One and on to Day TWO!

Good Morning!

So I completed yesterday with a great success! No workout yesterday but did not spend a good portion of my day on the computer, which in it's self is a huge deal for me as I find it to be a good place to zone out from the rest of the real world!

yes a zombie in front of the computer that has been me!

I seemed to fly through my day eating the veggies and fruits like a good girl and taking my vitamins when I was supposed to. I did however find that the evening time after dinner is the HARDEST!!!!! I have forgotten that that is prime snackage time for me! To top it off and add to my little inside struggle the family and I watched Hell's Kitchen and then Master Chef! Ummm yeah that does not help when you already are trying to NOT think about food and there they are making all kinds of YUMMY food!

Damn you Gordan Ramsay and your food filled shows that I MUST watch! LOL

But overall I felt good when I went to bed last night and woke up this morning ready to go! I am currently having my breakfast shake.

and then for my mid morning snack I will have two small granny smith apples and peanut butter!

I also plan on working out today, this will be the hard part! Beacause of moving a little slower this morning then I wanted I will have to work out once I get the kids home from their last day of school. Finding a way to have an hour to myself with the kids in the house has been an issue for me in the past BUT we will find a way to work it out. I will let you know how it goes!

So until the next time make today awesome and be the change you want to see! Good Luck and Treasure living Well!

Day One Honesty Post

Okay folks here it is the brutal honest truth!
I have to face the facts and the reality of my choices this past year, where I go from here is totally up to me!
And today I choose to fight! Now what I am about to post scares the heck out of me I am not going to lie, but I am going to show you and myself right where I am at 233lbs.

 **NOTE** It is not that I am ashamed of my body, BUT I know that I am not healthy right now and my body is showing it! (Ignore the non happy look on my face hubby was taking the photo with no warning started clicking away...this was the best photo LOL)

So here is the deal I know there is no magic pill that will change how I have become! There is only hard work and eating healthy! I learned that the first time and had an awesome trainer (Priscilla at On Your Mark Fitness) who showed me it was possible to make the changes that I wanted! SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO today is that day!

This morning I started my Advocare 24 Day Challenge....it consists of a cleanse (to detox the crappy nutrition out of my body) and vitamins I know I am missing in my current eating habits. This is just to help jump start me, to help me get back the energy I will need to get moving! It is NOT the magic pill but I wont lie it helps me get back on track! So far this morning I am on track and later today I plan to go for a walk with the kiddo's. Taking day one easy but making the change! I am also going to use http://www.myfitnesspal.com/ to help me keep track of what I am eating and my physical activity level....just another way to help me stay on track and be accountable. 

Okay so day one started!

My GOAL today  is: To finish the day with following through with my first day of the cleanse and walk to the beach with the kids after school today!

Good Luck to everyone else out there today! You can be the change you want to be, you just have to take that first step!

websites to things I mentioned on today's blog:

On Your Mark Fitness: https://www.facebook.com/pages/On-Your-Mark-Fitness/129118357122396

Advocare:  https://www.advocare.com/110212105

My Fintess Pal: http://www.myfitnesspal.com/

Welcome to my journey

Good Morning!
Welcome to the day I have decided to change my future.....AGAIN! Yup that is right I started this journey 2 years ago May 2010 and met my first goal by August of 2011.

On the left is me August 2010 at my favorite party of the year Jake the Alligatorman weighing in at 250lbs (yes really that is the truth!)! On the right is me a year later August 2011 at the same event at 199lbs! My first goal was to get HEALTHY and I wanted to be UNDER 200lbs.

I worked hard by going to an awesome work out class twice a week and then on and off doing another day of personal training. Working out for three hours a week and trying to eat a more balance of food that are good for me and not pigging out on my favorites like chips and dip and good ole Code Red Mt. Dew! I felt so much better everyday and my depression was in check having very few down days.

Well then I had a few medical issues and personal issues that kind of put my fitness at a halt, my depression came back full force and I lost my motivation. I quickly regained alot of the weight back, lost the muscle I gained and the endurance I had also gained from my year of constant physical activity (working out).

Saddly I don't have a regular pic of how I look right now....but my next blog post you will see!
So today is the day I will change my mind set and how I go about my day. I will be using this blog as my accountability! This is be my fitness/ health journal, I promise to be very honest about my journey and posting pics along the way. This is the only way I know how to get myself back on track and maybe it will help others...I don't know. All I know is that I want to be ME again, I want to be happy, healthy and able to keep up with the loves of my life and my whole reason for living.....MY FAMILY! I deserve it and so do they!